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In a deeply personal collection of poetry titled “Pretty Boys Are Poisonous,” published on Nov. 7, Megan Fox revealed she experienced a pregnancy loss that profoundly impacted her relationship with Colson Baker, aka Machine Gun Kelly. “I had never been through anything like that in my life,” Fox said in a recent interview with Good Morning America, talking about her book of poems. “I have three kids, so it was very difficult for both of us and it sent us on a very wild journey together and separately . . . trying to navigate, ‘What does this mean?’ and ‘Why did this happen?'”
“I had never been through anything like that in my life.”
In one poem about an ultrasound, the mom of three boys reflects on being 10 weeks pregnant with a baby girl, writing, “maybe if you hadn’t . . . maybe if i had . . .” The brief verse appears to be an expression of grief over her pregnancy loss with Fox contemplating what could have been.
Later in the book, Fox writes, “I want to hold your hand / hear your laugh.” In a separate verse, she adds, “but now / I have to say / goodbye.” Using lines that blend anecdotes with analogies, Fox poignantly expresses her sorrow. “I will pay any price,” Fox writes of her pregnancy loss and the possibility of carrying her baby to term. “Tell me please / what is the ransom / for her soul?”
The verses in Fox’s poems are heartbreaking and vulnerable, showing a side of the actor and writer we have not seen before. Months before Fox’s book of poems was published, however, fans believe Kelly may have alluded to Fox’s pregnancy loss in his song “Last November.” The song, which was released on June 24, includes the lyrics “You didn’t wake up today / I didn’t get to see your face / Was it my fault? Was it karma?” In the second verse, Kelly adds, “One day and another 10 weeks / I never even got to hear your heart beat.”
In the song’s chorus, Kelly, who is a father to 13-year-old Casie Colson Baker from a previous relationship, adds, “So sad we ended up here / So sad, but everything’s clear / Could I save your life if I pressed rewind? / I wish I could go back to November last year.” In a zine about his album “Mainstream Sellout,” Kelly added that his song “Twin Flame” was originally titled “One Day and 10 Weeks,” a reference to the duration of Fox’s pregnancy. At the 2022 Billboard Music Awards, he also dedicated a performance of “Twin Flame” to “our unborn child” after telling the audience he “wrote this song for my wife.”
Fox’s staggering poems have struck a powerful cord with many fans who have had similar experiences. “I can feel her pain and strength, vividly. A beautiful release while finding her voice,” one reader wrote on Amazon. Another added, “The poems are hypnotizing. It hits deep in your soul.”
Ahead, see Fox reflect on “Pretty Boys Are Poisonous” and her pregnancy loss.
Megan Fox Reflects on Her Pregnancy Loss With Machine Gun Kelly
“It’s not an exposé that I wrote or a memoir … But throughout my life, I have been in at least one physically abusive relationship and several psychologically very abusive relationships.”
Megan Fox talks to @kaynawhitworth about her new poetry book, “Pretty Boys Are Poisonous” pic.twitter.com/SkdTSpRi3Z
— Good Morning America (@GMA) November 7, 2023